like my entire world is collapsing. It sounds so teenage-melodramatic, but I have given him everything, and he ruined it.

S: hey
S: will you just answer?
S: please?
S: even just once?
S: come ON
S: not even once?
S: this is ridiculous.
S: one response, so i'm at least sure you're ALIVE.
J: .
J: im sorry
S: Are you serious?
J: ?
S: do you know about worrying?
S: for all i know, you could have been dead and in the ground.
J: im fine
S: k
J signed off at 9:51:50 PM.

The date is set, although I'm skeptical: September 13th. I guess we are going to the Park Festival in my town.

I am nervous beyond belief. What will I do when I see him? What if we don't have anything to talk about?

More on this later.